Oh my oh my.

i took my graduation pictures! initially, we were all dreading like don’t know what, but it turned out fun! two kinds of pictures were took, one was with the class in graduation robes/gowns, heh, we are a missionary school ok, of course we have special graduation robes lar. and then it was individual shots, in blazer and tie. everyone looked so smart in them! some look so cute lar. Xd.

shall restrain myself from blogging already, got to concentrate. 6 weeks is all i have now.

i’m dumb. i’m actually getting angry because of someone like her. god. what’s with me?! then, after some reflection at home, i have reached a new conclusion, i was just dumb. plain dumb.

no need to mention what happened. but i just want to tell her this. really, who do you think i am? a three-year-old? you think your childish gibberish will make me go to a corner and cry like a helpless baby? sorry, i’m much stronger than you think. and if you’ve forgot, we’re actually living in the 21st century where EQ is worth more than IQ, sure you’re a tad bit better than me in terms of books and knowledge, but really, when it comes to EQ, you’re far far below me. really, your childish antics won’t get you anywhere far in your life. i’m sorry to say, you and i can never click, means to say, we’ll never be in the same level, and once again sorry for being pompous and arrogant, but i’m sure i’ll always be at least a level above you and your minions.

hate me? see what i meant, you are already a level below me when you subject yourself to hate, as much as i am not happy with you, i don’t go to the extend of hate. its tiring and it makes life miserable. and i won’t degrade myself to your level by calling you a bitch. and because i’m one bitch, calling you a bitch would be like putting you on the same level as me. NO WAY I’LL DO THAT TO MYSELF. that’s like the worst insult to self ever.

RESULTS for PRELIMS = BLOODY BAD.
POA dropped by a whooping 7 grades. From A1 to E8. nice huh?
Bio is well, as usual. rather not talk about it anyway. fine say anything, so what if i’m really hiding from reality?! i really wish i can do that now.
Maths is well, same level.
amazingly passed combined science.
passed combined humanities. surprisingly.
english, TWO GRADES UP! WHEE!
MT, A1. excuse me, i’m not boasting or what, that’s the least i expect from my subject of expertise.

yeah well, this kind of shit results were expected. didn’t really study for them. shit it. oh well, wake-up call. for your information, i am not being complacent, just plain lazy. i know good results come from studying. but hey, on a brighter side, at least i upped my most important subject, ENGLISH, by two bloody grades.

i’d like to talk about something else anyway.
i just read from the forum, the latest topic was the final round of PSS2 audition, of course, its not like i care, but because kelly will be performing on that day itself. darn, and guess what they said? “潘嘉丽- 临别演出。” bloody hell lar, do they have to use the words “临别”? those two words bloddy hell make people feel like crying.

its been a year already. although its kind of cliche, but, time really flies. its been a year filled with fun, joy, laughter, depression, sadness, mood swings, adventures and of course, money, when it concerns her. she has become very important to many of us. its a kind of fate i think, to let her bring so many of us together. its not an obession or what, we treat her like that because in her, we see what we want to become, not necessary to be a singer like her, but the many other things she did to influence us, the way she behave, the way she does things, whatever. its the little little things that count remember? but still, 再怎么不舍得，we still have the face the fact that she’s leaving, and at least we know she’s leaving for her dreams. and and, we know that she will come back. right? but but, its still bloody difficult to say goodbye at this point in time! its a bloody year ok, a year is 365 days. 365 days worth of fond memories, you think saying goodbye can erase it off like that huh?

to stop myself from going over the line. that’s all for today.
RESOULUTIONS.
STUDY. MUG. STUDY. MUG. school, library and home are the only places you’ll see me now. at least until after the Os.

went to the zenique’s private party thing yesterday, wasn’t bad, just that it was more bored than what i had in mind. kelly just went there to sing then walked around then no more. well, at least there were photos taken. well, come to think of it, was quite lucky, got the tickets last minute, jevon and i were just trying our luck, but it seemed lady luck was smiling at us yesterday. and well, yesterday’s atmosphere was very tensed. after what jevon told me and after talking to kx and shi hui. i guess, its more or less settled, i mean, they were right, we started of as friends, why make things happen this way? and, with kelly leaving in 2 months’ time, all the more we should clear all misunderstandings between us and do something for her, not have these misunderstandings between us. after all, we are friends. and i do want to apologise to eileen. hey, if you’re reading this, i’m sorry for the tone yesterday. guess partly was because of the tickets’ issue and another thing was because i wasn’t really feeling well. i shouldn’t have spoke that way just because i wasn’t well, so, SORRY ok? i know this is not the way to apologise, but i don’t think its wise to call you at this hour. and i think i owe you an explanation. i didn’t know that things will happen this way, wouldn’t want it if i could choose. you are still the da jie da i know ok? =)

back to my daily life. first say this with me. “RED IS THE NEW BLACK”. =D. everywhere i go, i see RED. like today, i saw tons of red cars in different shades of red at the carpark under my block of flats when i was on my way out. how nice! imagine my surprise when i saw so many red cars. and the day before, i saw loads of people donning red, be it red dress, red shorts, red shoes, red socks, red shirts, red pants, red cropped jackets. whatever. everywhere you go, you see RED! nice. =)

today is 24th of sept. its a special day to me. exactly one year ago, i saw kelly for the first time. and i joined KFC exactly one year ago on this day, which means, i’ve been a member for one full year already! HURRAY! thanks, i’ve got to know many new people and learn many things through it! =)

SMILES. smile people, mooncake festival is coming for god’s sake. be happy. =D

i hate the 9pm show on Ch8, hate it, its a lousy story with uber cliche storylines. story goes, lawyer A and lawyer B are childhood playmates, B likes A since the first time they met, have been wanting to profess his love for her but didn’t. then lawyer C appears and A and C falls in love, and even though she feels very sorry, A tells B that they are like brothers and sisters and can never date B, and off she goes, dates with C. A and C goes happily on dates, leaving B to rot alone. HEY. what do you take him for? your toy? i know affairs of the heart can’t be controlled, but this is too much, its like, ok, A and C are happy, but at the expense of B’s feelings. that’s why i hope that the story has a better ending. HELL, i should go be the scriptwriter, i think my storyline will be so much better. at least, it won’t be as cliche as this.

ILL. ILL. ILL. stories like this sucks. big time. so much for the sorry. i hate it when people think that a sorry is everything. more often than not, SORRY IS NOTHING. i encountered situations when sorries only made things worst. and really, there’s no point in saying sorry only after things happen. its a futile attempt.

i thought of a story that i heard from a friend the other day, she was telling me a friend’s story. apparently, the friend of my friend has a not quite similar predicament as the above show, but it involves 3 parties anyway.

because jun complained that it was too complicated, i shall simplify it.
bascially, there was this girl who so foolishly believed that she could trust a guy when he already cheated on her once and promised that he would never hurt her again. he did. and all the while, the girl’s admirer did all his best to protect her from any harm. until only after a very long time after the girl’s breakup with the guy who cheated on her, did she accept her guardian angel. good for that guardian angel because his efforts were not wasted. =)

there you go, simplified version. very vague however, but really, you just need to know what happened, no need to know who’s who.

i just read the electric newpaper, heh. saw an article which features the PSS alumni, and of course with kelly in it too! the article says that she’s going over to taiwan next month, with a new management contract with famous producer-songwriter Yao Chien. according to the article, “Given his esteemed reputation and connections in the Mandopop scene, this move is as good as a guaranteed entry into Taiwan’s and China’s entertainment scene.” i sure hope that it will turn out well! i’m sure kelly can make it big there! WHEE! make it even bigger than Coco! WOOTS! as a 100% loyal fan, i wish her all the best! now that she’s finally gotten hold of her dreams, she’s flying high, with her big dreams and hopes waiting to come true with her own efforts and hardwork. =D

the only problem is, she’s gonna be based there. T_T. this means that we won’t be able to see her so often anymore. *wipe tears off eyes*. ok, exaggeration lar. but who on earth knows when she’s gonna come back? but still, on the whole, its a good thing! the first thing that came to my mind was: YAY! good for her lor.
and, she can finally bring her music to the hearts of many people all over the world, not only island singapore! YAYNESS! this means that we have more chance to hear her and see her on the news! and and, talks are underway for acting roles! YES! more things means more publicity, more publicity means she will get more and more popular!

JIAYOU! we will walk with you no matter what happens! do us proud! 🙂

what i want to do after Os? to work, work and work and go taiwan for holiday! and save save save! save as much as i can and try to make my first bucket of gold by 35! =)

wonderful! i went for some friendster-hopping and found this web, http://www.projectdiy.net. go, go, go! go see/hear for yourself! they have very good music, all ‘made’ by themselves, i.e, they do everything all by themselves, from singing, to composing! and not to worry for non mandopop fans, they have english songs too! on the whole, its really a nice site. try listening to ‘你给的爱’, ‘接受寂寞’, or ‘Love is all we need’, but i personally like ‘如果’.
for english lovers, try ‘Rainbows of Love’. =)
be it english or chinese, all are NICE SONGS! and the female singer, Tay Kewei has a very good and distinct voice!
GO AND LISTEN! =). no regrets, i promise.

this wass how i typed in 2/10/2004. almost two bloody years ago.

“aIyAh…neEd 2 sAe aNythIng mEh?KKP FC is thE pRiDe of 2e5…too bAd siAz…tHis yEar no iNtEr-clAsS, nVm boYz & gAlz…eVeN wIthOuT tHe InTeR-cLasS wE sTiLL nOe tT wE aRe tHe bEsT!!! nOw vERy laTe tT’s y mE wRiTe sHoRT sHort oNLi…neXt tImE wRiTe oNe L()nG loNg dE 4 u gUyZ aGaIN…
P.S.: KKP FC wiLL 4evA bE tHe pRiDeoF 2e5.”

taken from KKP FC’s friendster profile.

god. i am so utterly disgraced at myself. i feel like digging a hole and just stay inside til the world ends. see, this is what i meant by typing non-sensically. now that i think back, i wonder why i had wasted my time to caps some and not caps some, like i very free like that lar. seriously lar, if it wasn’t myself, i would have had a hard time understanding those stuffs that i had once written. let me find more examples.

this was in 10/9/2004
hElo…hAo pEnG yOu…tIs gal aRhz…hoW 2 sAe leH?¿? Ok…aS fAr aS i aM coNcErn…sHe iS a ‘cUtE liTtLe giRl’…bUt c0mE 2 tHinK of iT rItE…sHe iS rEaLi quItE cuTe dE lorZ. sHe h0rz…acAdEmIcAllY iS aBoVe aVeRaGe…*go0d brAin* LifE ciRcLe 0s0 n0t bAd…eRmz…2 mE sHe iS gd iN evEryThinG…wE’vE kn0wn eAch oThEr sIncE kIndErgArDen…aLm0St 10yEarS hAvE pAsT…oVer tHeyEaRs,sHe cHanGe quIte a l0t lEh…fRm iNnOcEnT dE 5-year-old *v0mIts* t0 nOw, mAtUrE dE 14-year-old…lAsT bUt n0t lEasT hoRz…iF u wAnT a fwEn wHo iS tRuStwOrThy riTe…ShE iS tHe fReN FoR y0o0o0o0o0oU…oKie…sHall EnDhEre…~fReNz 4eVa~ +tRiCiA+ ^_^

GOD. what on earth is life cycle?! more like life cycle of a mosquito. 2 years make such a big difference. wait, more coming…

this was 31/10/2004.
“~hApPiE biRtHdAe t0 y0u, HaPpiE BiRtHdAe To yoU, hApPiE birThdAe t0 jin chuen, hAppiE biRThdAe t0 yOu…~”
+zHu nI shEnG rI kUai Le, zhU Ni shEnGRi kuAi le, Zhu nI sHeng Ri kUai LE~zHu nI shEng rI kuAi le+…
hAppiE 14thbiRthDae…sorRi…n0 $$ & tiMe t0 bUypResenT f0r yOu s0 i tHouGht oFwRiTinG u A biRthdaE tEstIm0niAl…buTi wiLL tRy oKie? i tHinK i wiLL jUst st0pheRe loRz……oh bTw dr0p mE an0TheRtEsti iF u arE fRee…fRenZ 4eVa.

one more…

4/3/2005
okAy…thiS guY herE by the naMe oF stAnley nG mU khAi iS noT as simpLe aS u thInk ok? thE quoTe loOkS caN be deCeiVinG is moSt aPpropriAte to deScribe hiM…a noRmaL person sEehiM froM ouTsiDe ritE…hE iS thE quiEt quieT typE…bUt iN realiTy hE’s not anD nVr quiEt…poOr mE…i sAt besiDe hiM foR almosT 2 whOle teRms…quOte from himself: hai…nth to sae…

one last one?

Posted 25/8/2004
WoOhOo…tIs cLaSs r0x liKe hEll!!! wE hAf oUr oWn CCa: b0mBsHelTer!!!wELL,sIncE wE aLrEaDy iNtr0DucE é b0iz…wE sHaLL n0w iNtRoDucE tHe gAlZ…1st, wE hAf sh0rt sh0rt de aNqI n jAsMiNe,dEn wE hAf qUiEt qUiet dE mEiting,dEn cHeErFuL dE sEetEng,kInD-hEaRtEd dE aNgEliNa,nErDnErD de wAn Lin,pRetTy dE wAntinG,liKe bLaCk dE pHeBe,bLackbLacK de sArAh,wHiTe wHItE de cHinGmAn,mEsSy hAir dE kAh yEe,g0od iN sTuDies de LynNie,r0uNd RoUnD dE wEiQi,cApTaiN de lAo po wEiLinG,sKiNny skInNy de cAnDicE,pErvErT dE hUi sHaN,tAll taLL dE jAniCe,cLeVeR dE aDeLe,vErY tAlKAtIvE dE wEiMiN & mE,lAst bUt n0t leAst nEw neW dE yIxIn…abOve iS tHe dEsCripTion oF gALz iN 2è5…PS:2e5 r0x 2 tHe c0rE of è eArThdEfiNti0n oF 2ê5 => g0oD-sPiRiTEd,uNiTeD & kInD hEaRtEd!!!lAstlY,2e5 hAs è bEsT s0cceR tEaM IntHe wh0le oF thE sEc 2 lEvEl…

GRAMMATICAL ERRORS ALL OVER.

these were in the past. i thank god for it. =)

bloody hell lar. what does she take me for? her toy? who on earth does she think she is? my god? please, she’s just a passerby in these stage of my wonderful and eventful life. people like me won’t say or do anything to confront her. we wait and see how people apologise to us after they realise their mistakes. people like us don’t take friends for granted, we cherish everything thing that the God(whichever religion) who made us is giving us. people like us are not so childish until we give people faces whenever we don’t like them. people like us, ARE THE PEOPLE OF HIGH INTELLECT IN THIS COUNTRY. PEOPLE LIKE US WILL MAKE ENOUGH MONEY TO BE TaiTais IN FUTURE. WE WILL BE GOING OUT FOR HIGH-TEAs WITH FRIENDS WHO HAVE THE SAME LEVEL OF INTELLECT WITH US. WE WILL BE BUYING LV AND CHANEL WITHOUT A THOUGHT, RATHER THAN STARING AT THE GLASS WINDOWS, like what some people will do, as if staring at the Chanel 2.55 or the Hermes Birkin long enough, it will become theirs. how dumb. and we WILL NOT MIX WITH THE INTELLECTUALLY-CHALLENGED BEINGS. people like us, are, to be more specific, a cut above the others.

fustration-venting session is over. what happened today. =)

prac was practically a disaster. anyway, after prac we went to TM for a walk. to wen hui, its a super short shopping trip. XD. well, we went to the Watsons in TM’s basement and tried the Maybelline Dream Matte Mousse. conclusion was. its good. =) provides full coverage and does not feel cakey on even the hand. best of all? its fun to put on! exactly like what the spokesperson said. after that, we went to look at shoes. nice high hells. that shimin arh, freaking irritating, so tall already still want to look for the very high kind of heels. eh, spare a thought for us can? in brief, today was a fun day!

don’t really want to write today, just wanted to vent my anger. now that its done. i will go to sleep as a happy person. and the above post, the top part, is not racist, not sexist nor is it biased to anyone reading, well perhaps, maybe to one particular person. the post might be kind of exggerating lar, but pardon me, just read it.

oh, last thing, to the person if she knows who she is. i, tricia, don’t and will NEVER owe you a living. i live for myself, not you. to me, your existance is so insignificant in my life that i failed to even look at you like a proper friend. =)